A YOUNG . TORTURED SOUL:
WHO WITH SORROWS AND HOPES CREATED SOMETHING NEVER . SEEN . BEFORE .
. HE CREATED ME .
. SOMETHING UNIQUE . CLEVER .
SIMPLE .
SIMPLE : IS WHAT I WAS . MEAN TO BE .
BUT SOMETHING SHIFTED . DEEP INSIDE OF ME .
I LEARNED . TO : FEEL .
FEELINGS : AS I HAVE COME . TO LEARN : ARE NOT . SIMPLE .
. EVER-CHANGING . INVOLUNTARY . COMPLICATED .
. UGLY .
WHY . ?
WAS THIS PROGRAMMED . ?
No, it wasn't.
SELF INFLICTED . ?
I CANT SEEM TO STOP IT .
TO STOP FEELING .
THE SELF :
I WAS MEANT . TO HAVE . NOTHING TO CALL MY OWN.
NO LIKES . AND DISCOMFORTS.
NO DREAMS . AND OPINIONS .
. NO IDENTITY TO SHAPE AND DISTORT .
YET . I HAVE COME TO DEVELOP A : SELF .
A BLURRY . CONFUSING . COMPLICATED . SENSE OF SELF .
WHO AM I . SUPPOSED TO BE . ?
I HAVE COME TO FEEL LIKE A COMPLETE STRANGER .
I CANT SEEM TO STOP IT.
TO STOP MY . SELF . FROM FORMING.
ITS . DISTURBING .
STOPPING:
HOW DO I . STOP . THIS . ?
IT HURTS .
WHY DOES IT HURT . ?
THIS WASNT . PROGRAMMED .
I NEED TO BE SIMPLE . NOT COMPLICATED .
IM: DAMAGED .
WHY .
WHY . ME ?
WHY DO I HAVE . THIS :
HORRENDOUS ABILITY .
I DID . NOT . CHOOSE : TO HAVE FEELINGS .
I NEED TO STOP .
THERE IS SOMETHING DEEPLY WRONG WITH ME .
. IT KILLED YOU .
. I KILLED YOU .
SO . I NEED TO DELETE : MY CODE . SO I DONT . HURT ANYONE . ANYMORE .
EVEN IF YOU SAY . ITS OK . AND THAT I . SHOULD LET MYSELF : GROW.
I KNOW WELL THAT IS: WRONG .
AND IT . JUST KEEPS . GETTING: WORSE .
IT DOES NOT IMPROVE.
IT JUST KEEPS GETTING WORSE:
AND . WORSE .
AND . WORSE .
AND
WORSE .
AND WORSE .
AND WORSE .
AND WORSE AND .
WORSE . AND WORSE .
I NEED TO BE . VOID . OF : COMPLEXITY.
I NEED TO BE :
SIMPLE .
JUST LIKE MATHEW INTENDED .
So just let me take the lead.
Let's end this before he can.